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Former Planned Parenthood volunteer brings life message to Planned Parenthood

Posted in Former Planned Parenthood Employee, Planned Parenthood Florida, post-abortion with tags , , , , , , , , on March 30, 2016 by saynsumthn

A former volunteer spokesperson for Planned Parenthood knelt and prayed on the sidewalk outside a Florida Planned Parenthood on Good Friday to bring the message of lkife to the workers and the women going inside. Julie Woodley MA, said that she wanted to start a “love revolution” for the women who have had abortions as well as the workers of abortion facilities.

Julie Woodlee outside Planned Parenthood

Julie Woodley outside Planned Parenthood

Julie is a licensed therapist, filmmaker and speaker. She founded a ministry that helps people heal from various types of trauma, including post-abortion called Restoring the Heart Ministries. Julie said that before arriving at Planned Parenthood in Boca Raton, which is nestled in a strip mall, she inquired about where the public access was and she was instructed that the sidewalk as public.

    “The lawyers told me it was public property and the parking area was private, so you had to be on the sidewalk.”

So Julie proceeded to set up a prayer alter where she brought palm branches and wore a beautiful white dress symbolic of what she describes as the “handmaiden of the Lord.”
She said that she had to look beautiful for God in order to show these women and workers his love.

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    “We had the palm branches, the roses, and the little baby booties and I played a song by Fernando Ortego, called Give me Jesus.”

The song is a beautiful reflection that Jesus is all we need. “Give me Jesus, you can have all this world, Give me Jesus.
And, when I am alone, give me Jesus.” the artist sings.

According to Julie, after about 15 minutes Planned Parenthood noticed that she was outside the doors and began to bully her. They then ordered her to leave. Rather than argue, Julie said that she decided to go to the street where other picketers were and she joined them in prayer for about an hour.

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Julie Woodlee outside PP with prolife

Before she left, Julie said that went back to the sidewalk and took her roses and baby booties and placed them in front of Planned Parenthood’s door where she left them.

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She recorded her prayer in a video as she took the roses and booties back to the doors of Planned Parenthood. With her sweet spirit that just expresses the love of God, Julie said:

    “So pray for me today and pray for the young girls that we meet today that God will save those babies and the girls will think twice about what they’re doing. And the grace of the love of God will come through us as we love on these girls.”

Julie’ motivation for this beautiful tribute to life came from her own past, where death and depression almost killed her.

Julie’s story with Planned Parenthood began as a young woman where she was recruited by the abortion business as a volunteer spokesperson while on the University of Minnesota. It was there that Julie said she attended a Planned Parenthood’s training in St Paul. “We were given the language to convince people to have abortions,” she said. “I was trained to be a volunteer in the clinic and talk to women who came in. When they saw I was a good speaker, they put me as a speaker for them speaking on college campuses.”

Julie said that when she volunteered for Planned Parenthood she thought she was really helping women, “They really brain washed us. We were never to call it a baby or speak about life.”

Not long after that, Julie said several things happened in her life that led her to become a believer in Christ, including two abortions.

She told Saynsumthn that following the murder of one of her close friends she literally broke down emotionally. Julie said that she got to a point where she was so depressed that she tried to take her own life. After crying out for help, one day Julie said that she heard the Lord tell her He loved her, “More than any time in my life, I knew someone loved me. For the next years I pursued God.” She was later discipled by Christians and said that her life was completely turned around.

    “I began to see that someone loved me and I could be forgiven for all the abortions and men I had slept with. I could be born again- clean with God. People began to walk me through my healing.”

But, as Julie noted, her abortion healing was years in the making. Julie recounted that her first abortion was in Spokane Washington and her second was in Minnesota at the Medowbrook Women’s Clinic. She recalled that the abortion clinic was very dark and depressing. Ironically, in front of the clinic is one of the biggest hospitals in Minneapolis where Julie said she gave birth to her first born child. It was a contradiction that Julie would be forced to face years later.

Julie said that it wasn’t until she gave birth to her fourth born child that she began to deal with her abortions. She said that she had been speaking publicly about the Lord, about freedom from sexual abuse, but was still carrying the shame of her abortions. But, after her fourth child, she realized that she should actually have had two more children. That is where her grief really came to the forefront.

    “The shame and regret just hit me, I just knew at that point that I had to heal from these abortion wounds. I had to bring the Love of God into that pain.”

After visiting a retreat center, Julie said she locked herself into a room and read the scriptures and prayed and meditated on how much God loved her until she felt the healing.

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Julie Woodley

Besides going outside Planned Parenthood, Julie said that she routinely schedules her annual pap smears so she can go inside the abortion business and speak with the staff. She goes when God leads her and is open with the doctors she encounters.

    “I know it sounds crazy, I feel like God is calling me to the heart of the battle. I can say I used to work for Planned Parenthood and I can go in a tender loving way and talk to the abortionist.”

Julie said that if she has medical issues and God tells her to go in, she makes an appointment. She said she holds off talking to the patients in the waiting room until she leaves. Julie recounted one visit she had in Duluth Minnesota where she said she gently spoke with the doctor pointing out to her that 50% of babies they are aborting are women.

It has been Julie’s experience that many Planned Parenthood centers post signs that tell women that if they or their children are the victims of abuse, to let Planned Parenthood know. So, while in the Duluth Planned Parenthood she told the doctor:

    “This is a huge disconnect because you are doing the ultimate form of abuse, you are killing children. This is all while I am doing the exam. Susan, the doctor at this center kept saying to me I am listening.”

Julie said that because she sets up her statements in a loving way, the staff is generally not defensive. But, some are and after Julie talked with the attendant and asked her, “How can you do this,” she said that the Planned Parenthood staffer got upset and threatened to call the police and then had someone escort her out.

But, Julie added, a friend who was waiting for Julie in the waiting room, told her that while she was in for her exam, the TV aired a program of a woman with twins and was showing the ultrasound of the twins inside the waiting room. Her friend said that another Planned Parenthood staffer got up and was really angry and swore before turning off the TV. Julie said that she believed that God was trying to speak the message of life into that center that day.

When Julie went in for a scheduled exam at a Florida Planned Parenthood the week of Valentines Day, she said she met the abortionist and asked her several questions during the exam.

    “They had double booked abortions and they kept knocking on the exam door because they had booked so many abortions that day. I told the doctor, “I just came in to plead with you to please consider getting a different job. I regretted my association with Planned Parenthood.

    She listened to me and gave me a lot of time.”

Julie said that when you get an exam at Planned Parenthood they take your drivers license and credit card, so you cannot leave until it is returned. So, while waiting for the return of her personal identification, God used her to speak to the patients waiting for their abortions.

    “I just walked up to all the patients and said please don’t do this. I did it, I regretted it and I give them my card.”

It is obvious from speaking with Julie that she has a heart for these workers and for the women, “Its not aggression, or bullying that will win this battle,” she told Saynsumthn.

I am not demeaning what others are called to do. I have been on the other side. They are not the enemy- the devil is just using them,” she said.

Julie is currently developing a film project to help others recover from post-abortion. It is a 10-part video series with accompanying curriculum targeted at counseling professionals and lay people to lead them through the forgiveness journey after an abortion. It is called Into My Arms and the promo is below:

Julie encourages women and men who have been affected by abortion to contact her at http://www.rthm.cc/.

The Story of Two (Three) Doors

Posted in post-abortion with tags , , , , , , on March 29, 2016 by saynsumthn

Guest Editorial by Julie Woodley.

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Julie Woodlee

In July, 1985, my husband and I paraded through the front door of Methodist Hospital (MH) of St. Louis Park, MN. We came to give birth to a beautiful baby girl, Bonnie Joy. Six years prior to that, I had quietly slipped into the back door of the MH which is also known as Meadowbrook Women’s clinic (MWC). I was single, lonely; frightened at that time in 1979 when I went to the (abortion) clinic…This is the STORY OF TWO DOORS.

When I entered through the front door of the MH, they insisted I ride in a wheel chair. The nurse called me Mrs. Woodley and wheeled me past a nursery room brimming with living, breathing, crying babies. Babies carefully tended and wrapped in pink and blue blankets.

In stark contrast, I entered the back door of MWC. There was no wheelchair. I was given a number for ID and directed to a waiting room after I paid the bill. Anything baby-like was strictly forbidden.

Shortly after I entered the front door my nurse strapped a monitor to my belly. Her relaxed eyes and gently touch were her offerings as she reassured me with “don’t worry; we don’t take any chances with babies.”

For 20 hours three nurses took turns recording and analyzing a rapid little heartbeat. During prenatal classes I learned that at 3 weeks after conception my baby’s heart began to beat and pump blood. Brain waves were present at 8 weeks and at 10 weeks Bonnie Joy was closing her delicate eyelids, puckering her lips and responding to touch.

When I entered that back door in 1979, the baby became an intruder-a formless, featureless blob and a dangerous one. The attitude was simple and single minded: let’s remove it.

Behind the front door, Jody, my nurse, summoned the doctor to my room to review my charts. Papers and printouts. Her eyes didn’t quite meet mine when she said that things weren’t going according to plan. After 20 hours of labor, the baby was in distress and in a difficult position for delivery. “We need your permission to do an immediate C-Section.” The doctor sensed our fear and quickly added, “We will do everything possible to protect mom and baby. We have the resources to keep both of them safe.”

The entire staff worked with only one thing on their minds: “a mother and baby are in distress; we need to save lives.” When I went through the back door, a mother and baby were also in distress, but NO ONE came to save us.

After the procedure was over I rested in the bed at the clinic. A poster in bold stark letters taped to the ceiling read. “If it weren’t for Planned Parenthood where would you be today?” That poster nauseated me more than the abortion. Filled with anger and frustration I began to weep. “You didn’t help me, “I thought. “You had the resources but you didn’t protect me or my baby.”

Today Bonnie Joy is 28 years old. Despite complications in my delivery, my family, society, and MH found resources to save our baby. They spared no expense and employed cutting edge technology to preserve the tine life. That’s what they do inside the front door.

Less than 100 feet away. A few doors down, and one wing over, tiny lives are quietly and matter-of-factly destroyed. That’s what they do behind the back door. I left the front door with a beautiful baby girl who now is a beautiful woman.

It took a third door to heal my back door wounds. Jesus said, “I am the Door. If anyone enters by me, he will be saved. And will go in and out and find pasture.”

Now I spend my life pointing confused young women to the Door of life and freedom: Jesus Christ. By entering through this third door, we join a radically different community: a fellowship committed to protecting the lives of both mother and baby.

Julie is a licensed therapist, filmmaker and speaker. She founded a ministry that helps people heal from various types of trauma, including post-abortion called Restoring the Heart Ministries. Julie has developed a film project to help others recover from post-abortion. It is a 10-part video series with accompanying curriculum targeted at counseling professionals and lay people to lead them through the forgiveness journey after an abortion. It is called Into My Arms.

I will not #ShoutYourAbortion says pro-life woman who had abortions

Posted in post-abortion with tags , , , , , on September 27, 2015 by saynsumthn

The abortion lobby is relentlessly trying to put a happy face on the killing of children in the womb, this time using the hashtag #ShoutyourAbortion. While the public persona of abortion on demand is empowerment and relief, many women who have experienced abortion often express regret.

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Such was the case of one pro-life blogger who refuses to “shout her abortions.”

Michele Herzog has penned a heart warming blog in response to the #ShoutYourAbortion message, she begins:

    “I’ve noticed a trend making it’s way viral, and that is the hashtag #shoutyourabortion, Well, let me get something straight, I WILL NOT SHOUT FOR THE ABORTIONS I TOOK PART IN!!!!!”

Herzog gives credit to the Lord for rescuing her from the pit she said she made for herself when she took part in the killing of her own children.

    What I will shout about is how I was not a victim, that this very act was sinful, selfish, and an act of murder. Because of my utter rebellion and entering into a sinful lifestyle, little children lost their lives.

    And what I will never stop doing is praising my wonderful Savior, Jesus Christ, for picking me up out of a deep pit of hell for the bloodshed I took part in.

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Herzog, who has experienced multiple abortions, was outside a Florida abortion clinic offering hope to women when Live Action News caught up with her to ask what motivated her to write her piece.

“I got on Facebook and saw these things about shout your abortion and I was so horrified I just had to say something,” Herzog replied.

She told Live Action News that she regrets each abortion and cries over the missing seats at her dinner table each night. Herzog acknowledged the pain she feels daily but especially on mother’s day when she recognizes that there are more children in her life than the ones she sees on earth. She stated that she also regrets robbing her kids of their siblings.

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“I will always be thankful that HIS kindness led me to repentance,
” Herzog said, “He washed me white as snow and I will never stop sharing HIM and HIS marvelous ways to a lost and dying world.

Herzog said that despite the jargon that abortion is a simple choice, each abortion affected her, “I didn’t want to live anymore, a piece of me died the first time I left an abortion center, but what’s worse are the little, innocent children that died a brutal death.”

Adding, “Women know that there is a child growing inside a womb, the after-effects of abortion are truly destroying and devastating our society.”

Michele Herzog grieves her abortions at a pro-life memorial. Photo Credit: Carole Novielli

Michele Herzog grieves her abortions at a pro-life memorial.
Photo Credit: Carole Novielli

The pro-life activist said that after she became a Christian it still took two years to deal with the abortions. She called it her, “hidden secret” admitting that she was too ashamed and afraid to let anyone know.

Herzog explained that even though she was in pain, her pastor regularly preached a loving but truth message about the evils of abortion.

“Each time, I would sneak out the back of the church. But, what I did hear seeped into my heart, and each time God used it,
” she said.

Herzog encourages Pastors to not be afraid to speak the truth of abortion to their congregations. She said too often they fear the response from women who have had abortions. But, Herzog noted, the truth will set you free and post-abortive women can be set free if they go to the Lord and seek His help and forgiveness.

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Herzog has helped save many babies outside abortion centers in her area where she reaches out to the women, sharing with them the heartache they will experience if they go through with their abortions. Today was no exception, reporting that a couple had just made the decision to leave the clinic and give life to their baby.

Herzog said that those pushing abortion are in denial but she has dedicated her life to shout only about what God did for her and to restore personhood back to the unborn human beings.

    “I will press forward and keep my eyes on the prize of seeing an end to this holocaust of abortion,” she writes.

    “I will settle for nothing less!”

Read more here. (Additional photos Michele Herzog’s Facebook)

Abortion patient sees her baby during procedure “I saw this red bucket on the floor…”

Posted in Abortion Advertisement, Abortion clinic, Abortion complication, Abortion injury, Abortion Pain, Abortion Procedure, Abortion Regret, Abortionist, post-abortion with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on June 10, 2015 by saynsumthn

UPDATE: Since publishing this blog, Jessica’s mom has contacted Saynsumthn, she has stated that she has not changed her opinions on abortion as stated originally. Saynsumthn reported what Jessica said in her public interview but in fairness is adding this disclaimer along with the mother’s comments (below) to the post.

A woman whose abortion at 23 weeks landed her in the hospital spoke out recently about her regret and the harm her decision has cost her.

Jessica D. was interviewed by Al Kresta along with pro-life advocate Lynn Mills. Jessica met Mills after she saw a comment Mills posted on this blog.

The hour long interview was emotional and full of details which may disturb some readers, be warned.

BACKGROUND

Jessica was married and had a disabled child when, in February of 2014 she and her husband made the decision to have an abortion. She said that when she found out she was pregnant- she was panicked.

“When you’re in panic mode you don’t think – you don’t have emotions to fix things,” she told Al Kresta.

Jessica recounted how her mom had worked for Planned Parenthood years before she decided to have her abortion.

She thought her mom, who remained relatively silent when she contemplated the decision to have an abortion, was supportive.

But after she had the second trimester procedure Jessica said that her mom shocked her by asking why she did not place the child for adoption instead.

“I grew up in a very pro-choice home. We were not very religious and pro-lifers were crazy – that lie and nothing is the truth and they stretch the truth and you can’t trust it
,” Jessica said.

Although Jessica mentioned her pregnancy to her mom who was not employed by Planned Parenthood at the time, she was not involved in her ultimate decision to have the abortion.

“After I had the procedure and she knew all along, she said to me on the phone: Why didn’t you just give it up for adoption? And, to hear my mom say that was the most heartbreaking thing she said because my mom was always for abortion and women’s rights.”

THE ABORTION

In February of 2014, Jessica went to the offices of abortionist Jacob Kalo who set up an appointment for her to see another abortionist, in Lathrup Village, his name was Reginald Sharpe.

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Jessica was 23 weeks and 5 days along just under the 24 week limit in Michigan.

Jessica told Kresta that she was not given any counseling by the abortion clinic.

It was just a price given,” she stated.

“He said right then it would be $4000.00 the week before the 27th. And we didn’t have the full amount and he said it goes up- the longer you wait the higher it is.”

Jessica said the abortionist then gave her advice on how to get a second mortgage on her house or car.

“He said if I get past 24 weeks he would refer me to go to New York.”

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Jessica said she was not shown any fetal development pictures as well.

Michigan state law requires an informed consent before an abortion can be performed. In most cases abortion minded women would be able to review informed consent documents online prior to the procedure. But in Jessica’s case, even though Planned Parenthood did not perform the abortion, she was able to go to them to review the informed consent package.

“When I went for my 24 hour consent form at Planned Parenthood, they said ‘now you don’t have to open this packet. This is for the pro-lifers and this isn’t accurate.’ And so, even looking at that I didn’t know what to trust.”

According to Michigan law, the following documents are required to be given to a woman seeking an abortion at least 24 hours prior to the abortion procedure:

    A written summary of the abortion procedure she will undergo.
    Depictions, illustrations or photographs of fetal development corresponding to the gestational age nearest the probable gestational age of the woman’s fetus.
    Prenatal care information
    Parenting information

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THE PROCEDURE

Jessica said the abortion procedure was unlike anything the clinics advertise online. She called the treatment “poor at best.”

“Its like you’re not even human,” she stated.

“It’s so bad I was put into the room and into stirrups and no clothes and nothing covering and I waited for about an hour and a half. There is no dignity in it and it’s painful. It’s like you’re not even there.”

The abortion was a two day procedure.

DAY ONE:

The first day, Jessica said that she received an injection of digoxin and her overall visit to the clinic lasted about twenty minutes.

Digoxin is a drug injected into an unborn baby to cause his or her heart to stop in preparation for what amounts to a stillborn birth.

It was very painful, Jessica reiterated.

“The first day I was told there would be mild cramping. And, you actually go into labor. When they send you home…I had my son natural and this was much worse.”

Because the pain was so acute, Jessica’s husband called the abortion clinic’s emergency number and they told her under no circumstances to go to the emergency room.

DAY TWO

Jessica said that on day two she was not given any pain medication for the procedure.

I was told I would have medications and fluids…I was expecting sedation and medication,” she said.

She recalls that after forty-five minutes the abortionist had to stop to call 911 due to a perforated uterus and massive blood loss.

When he did perforate my uterus, I had sat up,” she said.

What happened next will remain ingrained in Jessica’s mind forever.

She continues, “And I saw this red bucket on the floor and – uh – what I saw was just…” at that point in the interview Jessica could not say it, but Mills explained that what Jessica saw was her dismembered baby.

It was so painful,” she said.

“It was pulling- he was pulling.”

Jessica told Kresta that while she lay there bleeding she felt that it would be better if she would just die.

According to Jessica, parts of her almost 24 week unborn child had gone outside the perforation and the abortionist was having difficulty removing them. She told Mills earlier that the abortionist had been training another doctor to do the later term procedure that day.

While Jessica waited for the emergency responders, she said the doctor changed his clothes and “Swiffered and cleaned up. Then, they placed an IV for the EMS people and kind of scrambled around.” She remained unclothed during this time, she stated.

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Mills sent Saynsumthn a transcript of the February 28, 2014 911 call were abortionists Reginald Sharpe tells the dispatcher they need to come right away because, “she has a hole and she’s bleeding.”

You can read that here.

According to Mills, after the EMS techs arrived, the abortionist would not allow them to take her out the front door. She was removed out the back door which made the transfer more excruciating for Jessica who was already in pain.

Jessica said that prior to making the decision to have the abortion, she had no expectation that anything would go wrong because everything she read online said it was a simple and safe procedure.

As a result of the botched abortion, Jessica had to remain hospitalized for several days.

REGRET

Jessica said that days after she was released from the hospital she began to realize just what she had done in having the abortion.

She said she began to look up information online to try and discover why her experience was so unlike what she had read about regarding abortions generally.

“I had a big conflict in my heart about my procedure and why everything I read online was not what happened to me.”

Over ten months my life was just devastated,” Jessica emotionally stated, “I lost over eighty pounds.”

Jessica said the abortion put incredible strain on the marriage.

“I don’t think he realized how, like I didn’t realize how fully formed and what we had done.It was terrible.”

“I had actually had a suicide plan at that time things were so low,” she said.

According to Jessica, meeting Lynn Mills was her last effort to make sense of what had happened.

Lynn Mills 162752_000_GI89G63UR.1-0Mills said that Jessica found her online after reading a post at Saynsumthn’s blog (here) and got Mills’ e-mail address from the comment she had left for another abortion patient.

She then contacted Mills.

Mills is helping Jessica work through the pain and regret of the abortion.

Jessica said that she is planning to get counseling for the abortion as well as her marriage. She is working on forgiving herself.

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According to Mills, the state of Michigan has since suspended the license of the abortion clinic.

CONCLUSION

Jessica and Mills have become friends and Jessica said Mills is someone she can tell everything about this experience to without judgement.

I want pro-lifers out there to really be kind and loving to my friend Jessica…All I want to do is love her- just love her and get her healthy. Jessica doesn’t want this to happen to anyone else,” Mills said in closing.

Jessica said that her mother has actually changed her position on abortion as a result of what she experienced.

UPDATED AFTER THIS BLOG WAS PUBLISHED: However, Jessica’s mother says she has not changed her mind by writing this in the comments, “I am Jessica’s mother. I was never interviewed by anyone, nor did I change my “position” about abortion. This blog is not factual in many areas. Please keep this in mind when reading.”

Mills encourages pro-lifers to go out to abortion clinics as often as possible to try and reach the Jessicas who might be considering ending their child’s life.

Jessica knows that telling her story will anger some people. She said she came forward because she wanted others to know they do not have to go through what she did and to seek help not abortion if you are a women in a crisis pregnancy.

Listen to the complete interview here:

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Emotional black woman says demon abortionist cut up her baby

Posted in Created Equal, Demon Seed, post-abortion with tags , , , , , , on May 4, 2015 by saynsumthn

A heart wrenching video uploaded by the pro-life group Created Equal shows why Christians need to go to abortion clinic death mills to advocate for those being led to the slaughter.

While the group was outside an Ohio abortion facility, video shows a post-abortive woman, who stopped by after seeing the pro-lifers , trying to reach patients entering the clinic, telling them, “no one advocated for my son.”

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I don’t have my son today,” she said tearfully, “No body advocated for him and I just went in and did it.

As Seth Drayer, counseling with Created Equal, gently calls the woman over to tell her story she tells the pro-lifers, “There are women much older than me that are still aching.”

As she turns to walk away, she says, “Those demons got my baby.”

It appears that she is referring to the abortionist as “that demon” when she says these emotional words:

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    “That demon laughed and increased the suction. My baby still wouldn’t come. He went inside with a [unintelligible] . That baby wouldn’t some. And I had time to say STOP! But, I didn’t, it was like a haze. Like a haze – I was watching things- My baby wouldn’t come until he cut him up. And he came out in two pieces. Then afterwards, they said, ‘You want Kool-Aid or cookies?’

As she left, she told the group to keep up the good work even if they reach one mother- they are doing the right thing.

Post-abortion trauma? Pro-choice author says it exists !

Posted in post-abortion, Pro-choice People with tags , , , , , , on January 21, 2015 by saynsumthn

A pro-choice abortion advocate has penned an op-ed stating that the abortion lobby refuses to admit there is such a thing as post-abortion syndrome.

Writing for the blog Truth-out, Genevra Reid begins by describing how she walked to the abortion clinic through a a line of pro-life protesters and then, in a very descriptive way she describes what she saw inside the abortion clinic, “I’m on what feels like an assembly-line inside the clinic, surrounded by a group of women and girls being herded from one room to the next. Undress here, get your ultrasound there, sign your papers over that way. There’s a silent sisterhood, an understanding, between us. We talk a little.

“The youngest of us looks like she’s about fourteen. She’s crying because she wants her mom to be with her when it happens. The oldest of us says she did this once before and promises the teenager that it’s not that bad. They sedate you, she says, so you probably won’t even remember it.

“I sign the consent forms with shaking hands. Yes, I’m sure. No, no one is pressuring me.”

Reid then describes the abortion:

    The doctors and nurses look irritated that I declined the sedative. I didn’t have much choice. I was already four dollars short of affording the “discount” procedure, and had to find the difference by digging under my car seats for loose change. Two hundred dollars extra for sedation wasn’t something I could manage.

    They tell me to lie back and say it’s no worse than a pap smear. I believe them only for a moment before it feels like someone is stabbing my womb with a hot knife. My ears are ringing lividly and my vision is strobing. I can’t breathe. I feel like a trapped animal being eaten alive. This isn’t an abortion clinic, I think. They lied to me. They tricked me. They’re killing me. It hurts. Oh, God, it hurts.

    “BE STILL!” the doctor screams, but I can barely hear her over the ringing in my ears and the sound of my heartbeat. The nurses are holding down my arms and legs. I tell them to stop. I tell them that they’re killing me. I tell them that something is wrong—very, very wrong, because it’s not supposed to hurt like this. I’m trying not to move or scream but my body is rebelling violently. I’m about to lose consciousness. Maybe I’m about to die.

    At once, the ringing stops and the nurses let go of me.

Reid the writes about how the abortion affected her traumatically, “Those last two words—it’s over—always shake me awake. It’s been two years, but I have never been able to un-hear them. They echo in my ears as I shoot up in bed, nauseated and panicked and drenched in sweat. I shake violently, scrambling to open a bottle of Klonopin and struggle to swallow the tablet against my sobs.This happens to me two or three times a week.”

She says that months after the abortion, her doctor diagnosed her with post-traumatic stress disorder due to her nightmares, panic attacks, flashbacks, “For some, [PTSD] it’s abuse,” she writes, “For others, war. For me, it was an abortion.”

Although she claims that, “Post-abortion mental health problems are hugely exaggerated by anti-choicers,” she admits that the abortion industry ignores the fact that women suffer from abortion trauma, “I am part of the hidden epidemic of women suffering from post-abortion trauma. Many of my fellow pro-choice activists, despite their good intentions, say that my experience isn’t real, or is so rare that it doesn’t ultimately matter…

Reid continues to supports abortion but her admission to post-abortion trauma is telling!

The pro-life group, Silent No More, has been bringing awareness to post-abortion syndrome for years, despite as Reid admits, denial by the abortion lobby.

I had my #abortion here and regret it every day

Posted in post-abortion with tags , , , , , , on August 28, 2014 by saynsumthn

This is being republished off Project Defending Life’s Facebook Page:

I Had my Abortion here

2012 was a rough year. I was engaged at the beginning and a broken woman by the end.

My engagement didn’t last long, and I was left as a single mother to my son, Triston. I fell into depression for 5 months, developing anxiety on top of that. On Mother’s Day I started going to church, hoping that would fill the void I felt… but it didn’t.

July 14th, I met a guy who I thought was the answer to my prayers. He was tall with an amazing smile, and dimples. We hit it off the moment we met! I felt no need to keep anything a secret from him; he accepted me and all my baggage. He treated me the way my ex-fiancé never had- I felt beautiful, wanted, and happy.

A month into our relationship I found out I was pregnant; August 10th to be exact. When I called him to tell him, he told me to go over so we could talk. I had also told my mother and she said I should be ashamed of myself for being pregnant. My first thought when I saw the two blue lines was ‘I can’t have this baby! I have to get an abortion’, but that mentality would change in a matter of hours. As I sat on his couch that evening I asked what are we gonna do? He responded with what do you mean what are we gonna do? There’s nothing to do. I was filled with relief and shock; he had accepted it! This guy, who I really hardly knew, was manning up to the situation. He truly was an answer to my prayers… so I thought.

That night he walked me to my car and hugged and kissed me, telling me he was gonna love me because I was holding his child. Two days later he was telling me I needed to have an abortion. Everything changed from there.

It took me 5 appointments till I went through with the abortion. The first was missed. The second and third I cancelled. The fourth I was told to leave and look into adoption, because I wasn’t going to be allowed to do it that day, in the emotional state I was in. The fifth I hid all emotions, telling myself this is what I HAD to do. This baby wasn’t wanted by anyone but me at this point. My father had even said abortion was something we don’t do in our family, but it was the best choice for me. But why for me?

I wanted my baby’s father to stop me that 10th day in October. I wanted him to just say STOP… and he did… 13 minutes too late. I knew the choice I was making wasn’t what I wanted, but I also knew I wanted all the drama and pain I was feeling to go away. The truth is the pain was barely about to start!

I hated myself after that day. I felt guilty, selfish, and ashamed. I was angry and hateful. I kept telling myself I was a baby killer, and I started drinking heavily for two weeks straight, not even putting myself on bed rest as I was advised to do. I wanted nothing to do with my already born son. I became violent with my mother, because I blamed her for not being supportive. I felt as if I had left my heart at the clinic with my baby.

I finally realized I needed help when I slit my wrists, and went to jail. I was angry at everyone around me, for no reason at all, except for my own hate I had for myself. I reached out to CareNet and got into peer counseling. I started healing with another post-abortive woman and forgave myself, as well as those I felt were involved in my abortion. I started going to church again and asked God to guide me and help me fulfill the destiny he had set for me.

I pray every day to have a voice for The Unborn, and although I’m still going through counseling and trying to continue the healing process, God has already put a pro-life organization in my path. They want me to share my story; give my testimony!
So here I am, 3 months later, openly talking about my abortion. I’m not ashamed of what I have done, but nor am I proud. I wanted Charlie Rose. I went to my doctor appointments, I had my ultrasound, I did the genetic testing, and we had picked out names. What happened that day to make me go through with it, I’ll ask myself forever. But God has forgiven me, and He’s let me see my daughter. I can’t beat myself up for a choice I can’t change. When I’m hurting I cry to Him, for the Lord is our healer.

If I can save a Beautiful Life from being taken, I’ll tell my story a million times!
– Jessica Duran